| Well, it has been a whlie. So many things have happened and no, I will not write everything down. LOLZ! Right now, I am sooooooooooooooo tired. I have been working non- stop since sunday and its not so bad because I have been given the responsiblity to fix the departments I know. And I LOVE organizing things. I JUST LOVE IT! I just wish that I could, even just a little bit feel that way about my room. My room is a disaster. But I should get to it soon, because my mom wants to sell the house and I gotta fix alot of stuff.
YAY, I'm going to school in January. I'm such a nerd because I'm totally looking forward to it. I had a lot of time to think about how to handle things and just clearning my mind and I'm ready. Bring it on Seneca. I of course will be going to York after 2 years.
I have also lost 20 lbs, and I look great. LOLZ! I can't wait to lose another 20 and I'll look fabulous. (I am not full of myself, just trying to change the way I think about myself..hehe)! But the greatest thing this year, I would have to say is CTO. (CHUCH IN THE ONE). I have learned so much and have gained a relationship with my heavenly father that I never knew that could possibly happen. Its a feeling that is just unexplainable. HE has also allowed me to meet wonderful people. People, who you don't even have to think twice about if you need anything in life. There is so much in the bible that I am so intrigued to learn. WOW! I sang for thanksgiving and everyone said that they were so touched, that ment the world to me. I just couldn't believe that I sang with my heart. Its hard to do that when your deathly shy. I'm learning to open up more and also allow people into my life as well and reveal more of myself to them because I would love people to know the whole entire me! Seriously its wonderful. Life has its ups and downs, and instead of dwelling and stressing over how to fix it, even when its out of your hands, I know that I have a loving father who is watching over me. And all I need to do is ask and spend time with him. It has changed alot of me and how my heart deals with things. I've learned to forgive and literally forget. Everything in life happens to make you who you are today. I think thats great.Thought its unfortunate how things happen sometimes.
And the plans for Experience are going great. For those of you who are wondering what it is, its a youth nite with talent and just fun. Talent, singing, worship and a short message. I can't wait....NOV 5th, yall. I have all the programs together and now all I have to do is type it up and send it to my pastor. Its going to great. I just can't believe that I took charge of something like this. Its going to be great. Anyhoo, me so tired.
But that is what is going on in my life right now. Its actually not so bad. LOVIN' IT~
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| | Security: | | | Subject: | AT PEACE!! | | Time: | 12:24 pm | | Current Mood: |  cheerful |
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| | Things have been going smooth latly. Been pretty calm and just content. Things are great at home. And now that its christmas its even greater. I'm going to make sure christmas is great this year because I love christmas and since things are great at home....why not. I'm almost finished buying all my gifts for friends and family and church. And I even did it without making myself broke. I must say that I have great friends. They are so wonderful to me. I can't complain about life right now. Everything is working out fine...I'm doing great in school. OH goodness...I'm also singing a solo in church for christmas. Its called My saving grace and its by mariah carey. Its a really nice song too. And I'm also acting. WOW..AM I going to be busy? I'm also going to see a friend from camp(maybe) on monday. I haven't seen her in so long so it would be so nice to see her. This christmas is going to be amazing. ANd yes....I have a crush in my biology class, his name is Craig and he is fine as hell. ANYHOO....i must be off...I should start doing my hw and stuff. too da loo! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I haven't updated in so long. I just have been tooooo busy to do anything really. My birthday sorta sucked on the 22nd of Nov. But it didn't bother me that much. I went to work...everyone wished me, then I came home and all of my cousins gave me something. And they did want to take my out for dinner, but I didn't see the point so I just went to work. I love my job. They are all so great and they think that I'm doing a great job. And I can't complain, I"m happy there. Not to many people can say that about where they work.
I passed both of my classes with flying colours and I pat myself on the back. I was going through so much and I didn't let that get to me.I DID IT! But today was the start of my other 2 classes. And i gotta keep up to the pace or I'm going to fall behind. I really want to become a nurse now. I really see myself helping people and just having a job like that touch my life in a way that changes a person completley.
(This is going to be a random live journal, just writing whatever pops into my head)
Me and my cousin are really close now. We do everything together..and she hates it when I leave her house. i totally feel about whats going on at her house, but what can you do....sometimes you have to go through shit so that you know not to let that happen to you again and to realize what kind of person you are. I like her alot...she is my big sister after all. I dont get to see my guy cousins very much...but i do miss hanging with them! LOVE YOU GUYS! My couisins wife...shes another story and i don't even want to get into it. Just want to say that she is a good person...then why does she act so selfish and stupid ruining my cousins life?
I have to sing a solo at church. I HAVE NO CLUE ON WHAT I'M GOING TO SING! I'm a little screwed. BUT i know we'll figure something out. I have to get my kids to do something for christmas...which I have already picked out and I'm also in a play. I have to kids and i favour my son. ITs pretty funny and yet very meaningful. Can't wait to do it. I'm also in the choir at church. My pastor thought that i had a wonderful voice when i sang on one of the practice days for the kids. I had to sing some christmas songs so that they know how it is sung properly. I really like church and i really like god. He's just done so much for me....how can I ever let him down?
Lastly....its hard to trust people now days. They act like they are all innocent and then inside their rotting away with hatred and something they aren't. Why be that way....when being a good person doesn't take to much effort. People have become so superficial and are blind. Its unfortunate that there isn't much to do about that but let it hit them right between the eyes. I'm glad i have good friends. You realize so much as you get older.
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| What a week. First of all I got sick......and I had like quizzes after tests and tests after quizzes. OH goodness....was I going crazy. YUP! But I'm all caught up and doing okay. I ain't that stressed anymore, and I'm not gonna worry about all the little things here at my aunts house which caused me to get stressed out about nothing. Just a month left and I can start on my other classes. YAY:S Isn't that just great for real. That means I have to stay here. That's okay...as long as I'm busy and doing my own stuff...I think I'll do fine. I still have 2 assignments to do and I have chemistry hw to do since its sorta confusing me. But I think I will get the jist of it. I really want to finish those christian courses that I was taking. I started how long ago and still haven't gotten the chance to finish them. I talked to my mom today...its funny how it happened too. I usually don't hear my phone. And as I was just leaving square one I wanted to check the time so I got my cell out and there is my mom calling me. Wierd eh. I guess that's gods way of making me feel better because I was sorta feeling down today but after talking to my mom I felt ALOT better. WUV U MOMMY!
MY birthday is coming up and I'm so excited...I just can't fight it...lol...okay i got a little carried away there. Anyhoo..i must be off since I have a debate tomorrow in history and I have to work tomorrow as well. Later gater | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I went home today and saw my mommy. That is why I am sooooo KAPPI! LOL! I love going home. The atmosphere is so warm and no hostility and I don't have to feel scared about any of my actions. I'm so sore today...I'm walking like a freakin' cowboy and if I sit I can't get up! LOL....but that means its all working. YES...i'm going to be a sexy bitch in soon time! Hhehe...not that I"m already..lol! I had a really good lunch and i told her that i would rather be home then at my cousins. And my mom feels the same. My mom really wants me to learn how to drive so I could just go from home. And she even told me, if you have to just leave in the morning like you have to do something and come back late so that you don't have to answer to them. I'm so happy that me and my mom can talk like that. I finally started working on my blanket again. YES its huge. LOL. I haven't worked on it in a really long time and I really don't have time for it. I'm way to busy with work, school and the gym. It's so true when they say that you do grow closer to your family when you don't see them as much. Me and my sister and really close to, talking about everything and I was helping her with her hw today. It felt so nice. I'm at my cousin's house now and I already feel so anxious. I don't know why though. Whatever, Another 6 months and I'm done:S I have to study and do some hw...IS THAT JUST A LOT OF FUN!
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| Well... went to work out today. Hazel is my trainer, and you know how trainers are. She pushed me so much that I'm going to see it in the morning. LOL, But I feel so good about myself rather then complaining that I'm so fat, I'm actually doing something about it. I did weight training and 30 mins of cardio and did it feel good:D
My mom wants to buy me a car. I'm so happy. But first I have to get my G2...so I'm working on it. I'm just so terified of driving for sure. But I guess its something that I have to get used too. I have a sunday school class now. Which is tomorrow. I haven't looked throug what I have to teach them but it is exciting because they like me. Makes me want to go to church even more.
School is just going. Its so boring. I actually like Chemistry but History...so much information and so much to remember. I just find canadian history boring. Maybe its the way the teacher is teaching it. This is a pretty random entry but I'm bored and thought that I might write something since I haven't in sooooooo long.
My birthday is coming...i'm some what excited. But I have this feeling that is going to suck. Mainly due to the fact that its on a MONDAY and I'm probably working and so in everyone else. Whatever, I know I'm going to be doing something the weekend before. I'm going to be 20. This is so exciting. Anyhoo...I think I'm going to go, Since I'm soooooooo tired. but OH shit..i just ate so I have to wait an hour. I'm also dieting which is driving me crazy since I LOVE food. But whatever, Like my trainer would say...It all depends on how bad you want it. I WANT IT THAT BAD!
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| I joined premier fitness yesturday. It was very exciting and I also felt like I was getting somewhere. But you won't believe the bestest part. Since my cousins go to premier fitness and I live with them I didn't have to pay a memebership fee. I just have to pay 30 bucks a month and voila ...i get to use everything there. And the most bestest part is that my friend works there so she's going to train me for free. Work is going great. The HEAD manager of Home outfitters came to the store today and told me how the managers have told them about me and how I'm doing SO Well. I was so happy to hear that. He told me to keep up the good work. And I have made such great friends who are such sweethearts and soooo friendly.
I miss my mom more and more everyday. When I went home for the thanksgiving dinner, she was sooooooo happy to have me home. We cooked a BIG lunch cuz people were coming over so you could imagine...dinner was huge as well. We ate together and were thankful for all that we have in life and are greatful for. My sister and bro and pretty good too. I feel so happy. But yet sorta feel like I wish I had time to hang out with them and my friends. Everyone is so busy all the time. But We shall make time. My cousins is over too and I like having her over. ITs like having a older sister around. Yep, I don't listen to her, but that's what younger sisters do. LOL!
I don't even want to talk about school. Chemistry is pretty good. Its History that's driving me crazy. I have no idea whats going except with the Aboriginals. Whatever, I know I can A's it if I know I can.
I also have come to the conclusion that I have to learn how to drive a car because I don't like depending on other people to take me everywhere I want to go. Here I'm the baby and that is how I am being treated. But I'm just greatful that I have a place to stay and that they don't mind having me over. Can't change how people are. That's how they grew up to be. My mom and dad have decided that they will buy me a small car if I learn how to drive. That way I can get around and do things for my mom as well. WOW! Praise God for all of this though!
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| I just woke up. I was really tired I guess because I feel asleep just after lying down to rest for a bit. Hehe....work is amazing. Saw Mike today. I haven't seen him in sooooooo long. I miss hanging out with all my buddies. It just makes me realize that everyone is so busy with their own lives. No time for anyone else. Even more... I don't have time for friends because of work and school take up most of my time. But it's so nice to see the friends after such a long time and know that they still remember you. I'm really happy with my job. And things at work. Its just that I feel crappy about staying at my cousins house. They aren't bad or anything. But I know that if I were staying home someone would acutally care for me. And not think that I ain't doing anything. I got work in the morning and then right after work I go to school coming home really late. What do I have time for? Yes, I thought that I could help around the house, but I don't even see anyone anymore. I just feel like no one cares about me here. Except for the fact that I live here and that they are accountable for me therefore I am not allowed to go out with friends or they will make a big fuss. I miss my mommy sooooooooo much. She would care and wake up early with my to make me lunch and make sure i have money for it as well. But here..nothing. I know that there is a huge difference...because her sons go to work...and do more hours than me but they don't get so tired because all they do is sit there and do stuff on the computer and talk to people. Where as I have to run around and am physically tired. She makes sure that her sons take lunch and she even makes them stuff. Nothing for me. And they act like I have all the time in the world and I do nothing in the house. I really do try. But what can I do when I have no time but to do hw and sleep so I can wake up in the morning when I get home at night? I can't really expect anything, just know that no one cares for you as much as your family. I love my family. Just makes me realize how great they are. Anyhoo....I'm feeling a little better now. Thanks to god for makes me so happy at work at making me doooooooo so well. They really think I'm awsome there. They always tell me that I " rock"! LOL!
I gotta go laundry. To da loo
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| I was sooo tired yesturday. I had way to many lindor chocolates that I was on a chocolate high. And then I hit rock bottom when I got to my history class. Couldn't even keep my eyes open for real. But my workplace loves me off. Their so happy that they hired me. I'm so happy they hired me. I like them, they like me. :D School is so boring. And my chem teacher just realized that we have a month an a half to finish the grade 11 curiculum. So he's just zooming through the course now. What an ass. He takes so much time with the basics and now's hes just going to fast that I can't understand anything and I have to come home and check it up online. THIS IS CRAZY! But I'm trying so that's okay. I GET PAID TOMORROW! I have so much to do with it. Not that I'm getting paid a large sum since its my first pay check and its always small. But my average is around high 80's low 90's so i'm satisfied!
I Miss my mommy too!
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| | Work was amazing today. I thought the cash was so hard 2 days ago and here I am being a pro at it. Who knew eh? Well, today my mom had to go for this thing near Square one but I sorta forgot about it and as I was making an anouncement on the thingy (paging system) my sister was waiting by the cash but I just thought she was a customer. And then she was like excuse me, and I was like don't you have school. And then she told me that she came with my mom. And she had brought me some Timmies. I was hungry and I hadn't brought anything from my cousins house for lunch because all the stuff they had was stuff from last night. They didn't have the stuff for me to make a sandwich. No one really goes shopping here excoet my cousins who go to work 24/7 . And the only times my aunt and uncle go shopping is to buy stuff for the meals...not anything to take out. Anyhoo, I prayed for god to take care of me. And he did. My mom never knew that I was hungry, but god told her. Thank you god! He does things for ya in the most mysterious ways. And he gave me the greatest job in the world and is helping me to do great in school as well. THANKS! Anyhoo, I thought I might write that today since I couldn't forget about it. LUVING YOU GUYS FOREVER AND ALL YOU GUYS ARE ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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